__Mia fora stin zoi tou, mono mia fora erotefthike ki auto to amoiro kai tha to metanionei s`oli tou tin adeia ti zoi.Kathe mera kai minas, kathe xronia kai aionas, stigmes gia auto fantazoune, afou den exei ekeini...
__Kathotan ena apogevmataki, kourniasmeno stin gonia tou, perimenontas adika ton megalo kardiokataktiti t`ouranou, ton ilio na disei.Mataia omos...ekeinos sinexize to flert tou me kati rodala sinefakia...kai to feggari perimene...kai perimene...kai perimene...
__I melagxolia to eixe kai pali katalavei.Pos tha pernage oli tin nixta monaxo tou, dipla sta xiliades mikra asterakia, pou flertaran to ena me to allo, pou ftiaxnane parees kai paizane, xairontan, gelousan...
__Ki auto tha kathotan mono tou.Mono tou, kremasmeno apo ton nixterino ourano, na koitazei kato me zilia ta zevgarakia pou filiontousan, gelousan kai zousan auto pou tou elipe perissotero...tin agapi... ton erota...
__Konteve pleon mesanixta, ki auto eixe vithistei stin melagxolia tou kai pisteve pos tipota pia den mporouse na to ksipnisi, otan tin prosoxi tou travikse enas ixos.Mia nota.Alli mia.
__Ti paraksnos ixos alitheia.Itan san ena melagxoliko klama.Nai.I mousiki itan sta sigoura lipiteri.Den itan to mono pou ipefere auti ti nixta.Xamilose ta matia tou stin mikri poli sta deksia kai tentose ta aftia tou na gefthei tin magiki melodia.O pirasmos itan megalos.Na xamilone ligo oste na evlepe poios epeze?Aloste, se kanenan den tha ekane aisthisi i apousia tou.M`ena krifo gelaki, kseglistrise apo ton throno tou, kriftike piso apo kati sinefakia pou koimontousan aggaliasmena kai katevike pano apo tin poli.
__Violi.I mousiki evgaine mesa apo ena violi.Anatrixiase. Kanena apo ta organa pou epaizan oi erotevmenoi stis kantades den to sigginouse toso oso to violi.
Kai to violi epaize.Sinexise na paizei melagxolika komatia, notes varies, pou me diskolia kseglistrousan ston aera, giati tis varenan dakria.
__Dakria?Autos i auti pou epaize etsi thlimena to violi prepei na ponouse poli.Eskipse sta parathiria na paksei ton sintheti.I periergeia kai i agonia to kaigane.Kai ton vrike.
__O sinthetis, itan mia mikri, leptokamomeni kopelitsa, me prasinogalaza matia, opos kai i thalassa se mia paralia pou eixe dei prin kana xrono, kathos, xoris na thelei na to omologisei, eixe stisei ton megalitero apo tous kavgades tou me ton ilio pou to koroideve gia tin monaksia tou.Auti tin mera den prokeite na tin ksexnage.Gia nixtes oloklires krivotan klameno, piso apo ta sinefa, vithismeno stin aionia monaksia tou. Mia kinisi to evgale apo tis skepseis tou.Ena xamogelo.I kopela xamogelouse.To xamogelo omos den itan xaras. Kathos ta dakria tis straggizan pikra giro apo ta xili tis, ekeini xamogelage me pikra sto eidolo tis, mesa ston kathrefti pou vriskotan apenanti tis.”Teleia” eipe. ”Mpravo glikia mou, paizeis teleia”.
__Afise to violi tis stin karekla kai pige pros tin anoixti ntoulapa tis, opou kremotan ena mavro foustani, mesa sto nailon tou akoma.Xaidepse to ifasma pano apo to nailon kai anastenakse.”Avrio tha sikotheis, tha plitheis, tha ntitheis penthima, san na pigaineis stin dikia sou kideia, tha pareis to violi sou kai tha pas ston gamo.Ston gamo tou” eipe.”Tha pekseis ta pio lipitera, ta pio erotiarika tragoudia sou, auta pou se kanoun na klais otan se pnigi i monaksia sou kai tha tou efxitheis na zisei.”Poroxorise pros tin kouzina, pires ena misoadiasmeno mpoukali kai gemise pali to potiri tis, pou kathotan paratimeno sto trapezi.”Epeita, tha mazepseis olo to kouragio sou, perissotero apo oso xriastikes otan tous eides na filiountai, perissotero ki apo oso xriastikes otan emathes gia ton aravona tous kai tha pas na tis sfikseis to xeri.Na ton xairesai, tha tis peis.Na zisete.Makari na exeis oli tin eftixia pou den mporesa na vro ego.Kane ton eftixismeno.Min ton afiseis na ponesei.Min ton afiseis na klapsei.An ta katafereis ola auta, tote tha vro ki ego epitelous enan logo na se misiso.Ki epeita tha figeis”
__I kardia tou feggariou ragise.Eixe ki alles fores sinantisei erotevmenous, xorismenous kai pikramenous apo ton erota.Omos...
__Omos...Ti itan auto to omos?To feggari siniditopoiise oti i kopela auti itan diaforetiki.Itan gia auto diaforetiki.Apo tin proti nota.Apo tin proti stigmi.Egeire tromokratimeno sto mpalkoni tis, apo tin apokalipsi.Tousous aiones eklaige kai diamartirotan gia tin moanksia tou kai tora...Tora...
__Tin eixe erotefthei.
__Xriastike mia nota, ena dakri, ena violi...kai tin erotefthike.Mia ora, oute mia nixta...kai ponouse gia tin thlipsi tis.Kolise to prosopo tou sto tzami tis, prospathontas na apotiposei tin morfi tis sto mialo tou, oste na mporei na tin oneirevete oli mera krimeno stin gonia tou.
__“Gamoto!” fonakse ekeini kathos stamatise kai pali mprosta ston kathrefti tis.”Gamoto!” klapsourise. “Diladi ti itheles?”, eipe san na malone to eidolo tis, les ki eftege gia kati ki auto, “diladi ti itheles, afou tin agapouse!Esu isoun panta i fili tou, i paidiki tou fili.De s`eroteftike.De s`agapise.OXI ETSI!” Proxorise me kopo mexri to krevati tis kai epese varia epano apo to kalima.”Kaneis den s`agapise.Pote de tha ginei” klapsourise. “Pote...”
__To feggari efxithike gia proti kai monadiki stigmi stin, os tote zoi tou, na itan anthropos.Enas thnitos. Na eixe anthropini ipostasi, sarka kai osta.Na mporouse na glistrisei sto domatio tis, na tin aggaliasei, na tin parigorisei, na tis pei...Na tis pei ti? Oti tin agapouse? Oti me mia matia tin eroteftike? Nai, nai, nai, kai pali NAI!Omos sinexize na einai to feggari, pou glistrouse apo to parathiri tis mesa sto fotismeno domatio kai parakolouthouse tin thlipsi tis.
__To feggari. “Feggaraki mou”, eipe me kopo ekeini, kai to feggari eniose san na min eixe simasia ston kosmo tipota allo gia ekeino. ”Feggaraki mou”, epanelave pali ekeini,”thelo na pethano” klapsourise. To feggari panikovlithike. __“Ksimeronei” eipe i kopela kai me tromo eide gia proti fora to feggari tin mera na zigonei kai na to piezei na figei, opos ekane ki auto ston ilio ta apogevmata. “Ksimeronei. I mera eftase.Ti tha kano tora?” Kouragio, psithirise to feggari, se mia prospatheia na tin voithisei. “St`orkizomai,” eipe ksafnou me pathos i kopela, “pos ama tin parei ego tha pethano!”
__Xanotan. To feggari eniose pos xanotan. O ilios eixe pia ksekinisei tin mera, pou paradoksos, itan iliolousti kai xaroumeni, xoris oute ena sinefo ston ourano, prominiontas mia iperoxi mera, se antithesi me tin thlipsi pou eniothan to feggari kai i kopela.Me kopo katafere na sirthei os tin gonia tou ston terastio galazio ourano.Skeftike na iketepsei ton ilio na to afisei oli mera ekei, na tin vlepei, na tin niothei, omos iksere pos auto tha itan katastrofi.Oli mera den kratiotan, ithele na einai ston gamo, na tin dei, na tin akousei na paizei, na tin niosei, na tis simparastathei, ithele...ithele...
__San eftase i ora na nixtosei, to feggari kiriolektika apigage ton ilio, prokeimenou na treksei ston gamo na dei tin kali tou.Kseglistrise grigora mexri tin mikri eklisoula tis polis kai kolise to prosopo tou se kapoio apo ta kalosxediasmena tzamia tis ekklisias.Tin eide.
__To prosopo tis itan kataxlomo, eno ta mavra tis malia, piasmena se oura, tin ekanan na dixnei akoma pio xlomi.To foustani mesa sto nailon itan ekei.Mavro, makri, xoris xantres kai stolidia, ena aplo mavro forema, gimno apo ta stolidia pou forane oi ginaikes epano tous, me monadiko stolidi mia xrisi alisida me mia kardoula stin akri tis.I kardoula auti, eixe ena mikro louketo kai dio klidakia perasmena se ena krikaki mazi me to louketo.To feggari katalave.
__I kardia simvolize tin kardia tis, to louketo itan to louketo pou evale ekeini stin kardia tis, otan ton agapise, klinontas mesa tis ekeinon kai klidonontas tin oste na min iparksei alli agapi kai ta klidia...
__Ta klidia itan perasmena sto idio krikaki me to louketo.Ta klidia itan mazi me to louketo.To louketo itan ekeinos.Ekeinos kai mono kratouse ta kleidia gia tin kardia tis, gia tin agapi tis, ekeinos itan o idioktitis tis. Ki omos, tora itan ston diko tou gamo. Ithele na diksei oti ekeinos, pou katixe ta klidia gia tin kardia tis, ta xrisimopoiouse.Ta xrisimopoiouse.Ta xrisimopoiouse, omos, ti eironia, gia na anoiksei mia alli kardia.
__Pernagan tis veres.Ekeini arpaxtike apo to mprostino tis kathisma kai esfikse dinata tin tsanta tis sto stithos tis.Ponouse.To feggari ponouse sxedon to idio, vlepontas tin na ipoferei gia kapoion pou den tin ithele.
__O koumparos alaze ta stefana.Ekeini, les kai katalave oti tin parakolouthouse to feggari, girise to kefali tis kai koitakse apo to parathiro pou vriskotan to feggari. Xamogelase kai pali pikra kai to feggari thimithike ton orko pou tou edose to perasmeno vradu kai anatrixiase.Oxi, parakalese apo mesa tou, oxi agapi mou, min to kaneis.
__I megali stigmi irthe.Ekeini, me kopo sikothike kai pige na efxithei sto zevgari, pou dexotan dekades efxes, kai paremene piasmeno xeri-xeri, efxaristontas kai gelontas.Mono ekeini den gelage.Otan irthe i sira tis, ton aggaliase sfixta.Perasan kapoies stigmes mexri na ton afisei. “Na zisete”, eipe me thlipsi. “Sas efxomai kathe eftixia, eilikrina”. Pausi.Ena dakri apeilouse na kilisei.Ekeinos, les kai to katalave, les kai eniose poso ton agapouse, tis apantise: “S`euxaristo nixtolouloudo, tha to palepso, min anisixeis. Ki esu thelo na gineis i nona sto proto mas paidi.Tha to thelame ki dio mas para poli.Den prokeite na kanoume pote paidi an den einai na to vaftiseis esu.”
__Zalada.Tis irthe lipothimia. NIXTOLOYLOYDO.Etsi tin fonaze otan itan mikroi.Tis to eixe kolisei mia vradia pou epese apo ton vraxo stin plagia kai espase ta dio tis podia kai 3 plevra, stin prospatheia tis na ton anevei, gia na kopsei nixtoloulouda.Epanilthe apotoma stin pragmatikotita.Nona? Paidi?Na ginei nona sto diko tou paidi? Oxi, auto itan kati pou den tha ginotan.Apopse tha pethaine.Den tha ipirxe otan tha kanane autoi paidi.
__“Nixtolouloudo?” fonakse ekeinos kathos ekeini apoxorouse apo tin ekklisia.Ekeini girise arga. “Eferes mazi sou to violi?” tin rotise.”Se parakalo, pigene ferto”, tin iketepse otan eide pos den tou apantouse. “Paizeis toso thlimena, toso romantika”, eipe ekeinos se mia prospatheia na tin pisei, “den iparxei erotevmenos pou na min klaei otan s`akouei na paizeis violi” simplirose. “Kane mou autin tin xari”, tin iketepse.
__“Den sou ekana doro gamou, giati iksera pos oloi tha sas kanan to idio”, tou apantise ekeini.”To doro mou, tha sas to kano apopse.” Pausi. “Tha pekso ta pio erotiarika, ta pio thlimena, ta pio romantika mou komatia gia sas, auto tha einai to doro mou gia ton gamo sas”.Efige. Pige na parei to violi tis.
__To feggari tin sintrofepse se oli tin diadromi, fovoumeno pos kati tha ginotan, omos eftasan se ligo sto spiti tou niopantrou pia zevgariou, opou eixe stithei to glenti gia ta kala. Oloi tin ipodextikan me xara, molis diavike tin avloporta me to violi sto xeri, tin valan na katsei dipla sto gampro kai tis prosferan gliko krasi na piei.Ekeinos, koitakse me laxtara to violi. Sikothike
__To feggari eniose xilies notes na to karfonoun stin kardia, kathos ekeini epaize ki epaize kai sinexise na paizei, oli tin nixta ospou na ksimerosei.Kaneis den milise.Kaneis den sikothike.oli tin nixta, mexri na feksei, o monos ixos pou akougotane itan tou violiou, pou epaize astamatita, evgaze floges.
__T`asteria, akousan tin mousiki kai plisiasan pros stin gi, eno polla apo auta, arxisan na feggovolane pio entona kai pio eftixismena, sto akousma tis mousikis, magemena, opos ta pontikia apo ton avlo sto gnosto paramithi.
__Ta rodakia kai ta giasemia tou kipou, paratisan ton ipno tous stin mesi, anthisan kai gemisan evodies olo ton kipo, stin prospathia tous na simvaloun stin magemeni atmosfera, aftixismena apo tin mousiki, erotevmena ki auta me tous ixous.
__T`aidonia, apo to diplano dasaki, irthane petontas oso pio grigora mporousan kai stroggilokathisan sta dentra, giro stin avli, pasxizontas na sigkratisoun tin melodia sto mialo tous, niothontas tin iperifaneia tous pligomeni, mia kai, ixan kseperastei oi melodies tous apo ton ixo pou evgaze to organo enos anthropou.
__Molis ksimerose, ekeini ksekinise gia to spiti tis.Den eipe oute ena geia sas, oute ena efxaristo, oute kan mia efxi sto niopantro zevgari.Apla ksekinise gia to spiti tis.To feggari, tin apoxairetise magemeno ki auto akoma apo tin mousiki tis, ksexnontas gia ligo tous orkous pou tou edose, ta perasmena vradia.
__Oli tin imera tragoudouse to feggari, ta tragoudia tis, magemeno akoma apo to paiksimo tis kai den tou perase kan apo to mialo to ti tha epakolouthouse.
__To apogevmataki kai pali, san souroupose, to feggari vgike apo tin kripsona tou kai etrekse na kremastei sto parathiri tis. Koitakse mesa. Skotadi. Kaneis. Oute psixi. Pou mporei na pige? Tote mono thimithike tous orkous tis.Arxise na trexei, deksia ki aristera, mpros kai piso, ekane to giro tis mikri polis 3 fores, psaxnontas apegnosmena na tin dei se kapoio dromaki, koitakse apo ta parathiria mesa sta spitia ena ena. Pouthena.Apelpismeno, arxise na tin psaxnei pantou, s`oli tin perioxi.Ospou to akouse.
__O ixos tou violiou tis erxotan apo tin thalassa.Etrekse pros ta ekei.Ekeini, kathotan epano sta vraxia, forontas kai pali to mavro foustani tis me tin alisida me tin kardia kai to louketo ston lemo.Itan poli pio omorfi simera. Simera xamogelouse. Gelouse. To gelio tis taksideve pera sta vraxia, magevontas tou naftikous pou tin pernagan gia sirina tou vithou.Apopse den edixne distixismeni, para xaroumeni ki eutixismeni.To feggari den katalave.
__O aeras anemize to foustani tis kai ta malia tis, tis mpainan sta matia ki auti stamatouse kathe toso to peksimo gia na ta mazepsei apo ta matia tis.To feggari egire plai stin agapimeni tou kai tin filise aerina, sta xeilia. Xairomai pou den eisai pia thlimeni.Fantastike pos to kseperase.Ti anoito. Molis teliose to tragoudi tis ekeini fonakse st`asteria “Akouste me asterakia mou pos paizo, akouste me! Eimai eftixismeni!”Ksekinise ena xaroumeno komati sto violi tis kai arxise na xorevei epano ston vraxo. “Eimai eftixismeni feggaraki mou, eimai eftixismeni”, fonaze kathe toso. To feggari, xorepse mazi tis ston idio skopo.”Eimai eftixismeniii!!!!” fonakse dinata, spazontas kata lathos mia xordi apo to violi tis, kathos epeze mia faltsa nota.Auti itan kai i teleftaia nota pou epaikse pote to violi tis.
__O thorivos pou ekane to violi kathos espage sta vraxia, autos kai mono autos ekane to feggari na katalavei. Ekeini xairotan tis teleftaies tis stigmes. To eixe apofasisei.Eixe pethanei.Eixe pethanei.
__To feggari prospathise polles fores na autoktonisei ki auto apo tote. Prospathise na mpei anamesa se amaksia, na pesei me fora sta vraxia na liosei apo to klama...alla tipota.To feggari tha einai gia panta katadikasmeno na menei me tin anamnisi tis, na klaei otan akouei violi, na lionei kai na xinete opou vrei nero, psaxnontas tin apegnosmena ston vitho tis thalassas i kapoias limnis, min antexontas na apodextei ton thanato tis.
__An kai den katafere pote na autoktonisei, katafere na pligosei ton eafto tou para polles.An to koitakseis prosektika, tha deis oti to moutraki tou, einai panta thlimeno, eno, kapoies kalokairiatikes meres, tis meres pou gnorise tin kali tou, tha to deis kokkino, matomeno, na gernei thlimena ston mavro tis nixtas ourano.Tipota den mporei na tou dosei pia xara.Tipota.Ektos...
Ektos apo ta peftasteria.Mono kai mono gia auta zei. Kathe fora pou pesei ena asteri, to feggari kanei ki auto tin diki tou efxi, perimenontas ki auto me parapono tin efxi tou, elpizontas pos kapote tha pragmatopoiithei.
__Ti efxetai to feggari?Xaxaxax! Min mou peite pos den to fantazeste? To feggari ksimeronei kai vradiazei me mia mono efxi, kolimeni sto mialo tou. Pethameno. Ax pos tha ithele na einai to pethameno feggari, na pethaine, na esvine, na xanotan.Etsi toulaxiston tha zouse tin aioniotita plai stin kali tou... Tin kali tou...

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